How hard it is to be loved by one, yet feel so alone...

Your presence dissipated the cold of the season and warmed my heart when we first met..

Big beautiful brown eyes stare in to my soul..

We grab hands and you pull me away to a bright, beautiful, calming place..

As the season change we go from 2 to 2 halfs to 1...

We are on the same path...

Or at least we were..

Love can be so Naive..

These days I finished 2nd in the race for your heart..

I thought I was first but maybe that was the naivety in me..

3 seasons have come and gone and the cold has come again but yet there is no warmth this time..

I have always been attracted to the driven..

And thats you...

But I've learned something about the driven..

Thats just It they're driven and that came before me...

The Obama Effect?...

So last night I was in bed with my babe (who shall remain nameless) and we're watching The Color Purple (my first time ever and im 25), when we see a commercial for a new show on Black Exploitation Television also known as BET. The commercial was for a new game show called "Pay It Off" and in the ad the title was in front of a Credit card. Does anyone see the problem with this or is it just me being highly sensitive to black stereotypes. Well anyway this raised the question in my head, Have black people regressed since the swearing in of the first black president (actually bi-racial)?

I mean lately it just seems like there is less of African Americans during prime time and more of us on during news time. CW formally known as UPN (aka Under Paid Negro-Network) had a full line up of black sitcoms and the last one standing "The Game"was canceled in 2009. Although I did not personally watch the show, many of my friends were huge fans of the sitcom and not even countless petitions could save the show. Currently the only African American prime time show on network television is The Cleavland Show on FOX, a cartoon.

As far as the news goes African Americans as a whole are not really looking so hot. One of biggest stories in the news right now is about Derrion Albert, a 16 year old honor student murdered as a bystander of a gang fight in Chicago. As sad but common as this story is, for the media to plaster the video online of this young boy's murder is downright disturbing and disrespectful to the family of the victim.

Since Obama has taken office you have seen racism in a much more in your face manor than before. We all saw the McCain rally's with chants of "N-gger and Kill Him" during the election process. I my self endure racial slurs each time I go on Blog Tv a site devoted to video bloggers who want to chat live with their viewers. Being called the N-word and other racial slurs is all too common!

So I ask you this have blacks sacrificed integrity in the media spotlight in order to have a black (bi-racial) president? I think many people have had this false hope that with Obama taking office that everything would simply get better for African Americans, but as an African American I realize that in order for us to stop being stereotyped we must stop feeding the stereotypes. We need to start thinking its cool to speak proper English, read books, further our education, and aspire for better lives. It irritates me when I see my people settle for shows like Real Housewives of Atlanta, Tiny & Toya, Frankie & Neffe. Although they have money they still reflect a ghetto mentality that uneducated African Americans seem to pride them selves on. Where is today's Cosby Show?

The F#ck that just wont go away!!

How dare you try to play me b@tch, try to make me look like some angry and bitter person over you. Hmmph I do think so! I have known you for far to long and have tried to distance my self but some how some way, you always seem to weasel you way into my life. Go away I say, you seem to think that we are friends but in reality to we nothing more than F%ck buddies who failed to be.. Failed to be something more that is, you I vert good at seeing through people motives. Call me Cleo b#tch because I see through you clearer than a Brita pitcher can clean up muddy water. Your not fooling me because I will check that A$$ like Sheree's failed party planner. So don't try to play me as some angry bittier person over you when simply you and I were nothing more than a good fu$K! Do me a favor and get out of my life because I have moved on and your just confused about who you are and what you want!!! THIS RANT IS DONE!

Tear a Piece Put One Back!

Okay so I have learned some things being in the corporate world and been shocked by some things as well, but this just irritates the hell out of me. So in my office like many others around the world occasionally some one will bring in bagels, cookies, basically anything thats served as an individual item.

Why the hell do some people take there bare hands and tear a piece off then put the rest back in the pile. I don't know what the h#!! you've been doing with your hands before reaching for that bagel. Then to put the rest back to contaminate the others so we can intake your germs!! Thank you so much for being so giving, I'd just love to have your little Bobby or Jessica's cold. Your just to kind. I swear man some people can be so damn nasty and see nothing wrong with it, and I really wanted another bagel too...SMH

Even the apology wont save your business...

Things that make you say hmmm..

Thats it.. the world will be gay in 20yrs! I claimed it first!!!

Who's DL are you?

Phase 1

Down4whateva

Age: 26

Style: Downlow

Orientation: Straight

Build: Muscular

Height: 5'11"

Dick Size: 10"

Looking for: Sex

HIV Status: HIV Negative

Phase 2

Down4whateva: What's up?

Keepitlow4u: Shit.. Chillin Wassup with you?

Donwn4whateva: Trying to hang out?

Keepitlow4u: Thats wassup you tryna get in to something tonight?

Down4whateva: Yea text me (202) 555-5482 your address, im bout to hop in the shower

Phase 3

Keepitlow4u is at Down4whateva's door and the door is open. Down4whateva and is leading him to the living room where a movie is playing. He notices a Down4whateva has a slight switch in his walk, but he's focused on getting what he wants so he doesn't let it phase him.

Walking down the dimly lit hallway he notices beach photo's of Down4whateva and friends in speedos. His focus it fading and he's thinking "Is this this nigga DL.... I know I didn't misread..."

After a few minutes of talking Down4whateva goes in for a kiss and the light catches the lip gloss on his lips. Immediately Keepitlow4u pulls back and says "Nigga are you DL?" in a loud and unconvinced tone.. and to his response "NO...I just play one on BGC..."

The 11th please..

“And up to what year is your schooling have you completed?” the prosecutor says. “The eleventh,” states the witness.

I have noticed in my 5 weeks of jury duty that most of whom dropped out of school it happened in the 11^th grade. Why is this? Just exactly what is it about the 11^th grade, which is so daunting to the youth of America that they feel a need to quit their schooling?

It’s hard for me to relate being that I have a college degree, but I think may have an idea. I remember when I was in high school the 11^th grade was a milestone year; it would be the year that I decided if college or the workforce would be my future move. Maybe this is the reason why so many do drop out in this year.

Lets face the facts, most which drop out of school are not necessarily on the path to valedictorian. With local legislation changes made in the past 10 years or more to school boards around the country, student must take exit exams in-order to graduate. A student who has not put forth his/her best performance for the past two years schooling would have to be faced with the fear and embarrassment of failing the exam and being held back a year.

So what are our school boards to do? Continue on with the failed attempt at no child left behind and continue to pass kids out of school with a 5^th graded reading level? No, when I was in elementary school we had mentoring programs from high school. When I was in the 11^th grade I stayed a weekend at a college to get first hand experience of the college life, which played a major part in my decision to go to college.

In my opinion many youth, inner city, suburban, or rural don’t always have the best examples if any to use as role models of what path they go on to follow their childhood dreams. As children we have always been asked, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” But here is the question, how many of us have actually had adults take that information and try to foster that dream in order to make it a reality.

School boards should have positive examples come to class rooms to help children realize that you can be what you want to be, no matter what obstacles they are currently faced with. To add to that point it should not be a once a year thing. If positive role models can be placed with children as mentors especially in high schools, I am more than sure the drop out rates would drop dramatically.

As a You Tuber and now blogger I have placed my self in a position as a role model unknowingly. I have people who I talked to regularly and try to feed them advice based on my personal experiences. If there aren’t such programs in school systems currently for those who are currently in high school and reading this, take the initiative to find your own role model and mentor. Maybe then the 11^th grade will not be the end of the road for you!

Wine gets better with age....

So as most who follow me on twitter (www.twitter.com/wa2_tv) or youtube (www.youtube.com/wa2tv) you'd know that I have been on Jury duty now for 5 weeks. Thank God it is the last, but I must say I will not be so happy to be going back to my job. Now your probably wondering why the title but this is what I mean.

As I child you would always hear adults say "Oh he/she is just young" as an excuse for their immaturity, but I have found with time as I have gotten older that its just that.. An Excuse! These 5 weeks have been nothing more than revisit of grade school.

Drama, Drama, Drama, outside of listening to cases we have tons of down time, and when there is down time people talk. Please don't leave the room when the conversations start because you will definitely be a target. Just like children on the school yard the gossiping and talking about one another begins... "She's married and trying to get that mans number..," or "She always got to comment or ask questions.." or " I cant stand him/her they get on my last nerve..." Yet as soon as you come back in the room its all smiles.

For the most part I have stayed to my self and not spoke too much about my personal life just because of the behavior of the adults surrounding. This is a small room so your business is everybody's business. The behavior of some adults 3o- 6o years in age has surprised me, I don't know why though. After all this is not the first time I have experienced situations like this, but for some reason it seems to surprise me every time.

This is why I say Wine gets better with age but people don't!!!